a rainy day in the bronx..

i guess spring hit! because the rain in new york city is hitting hard.. i love the grey clouds, the smell of fresh fallen rain..

my favorite thing in nature is rain. the weather perfect for sleeping, or love making.. but for me today its the perfect time to reflect and analyze who i really want to be. i want to be more than just a mother, a lover, a friend, a daughter, a sister.. i want to be the woman whose confidence shine through whatever situation.. her strength can get through any situation. i want to be the woman who has ambition.. not shy... not scared. i want to be newer, brighter, stronger..

sometimes i feel myself being as greyscale as these rainy clouds.. i feel like im losing my "umph" my rainbow-color filled personality.. i feel that im taking life day 2 day with no happiness no excitement and no joy.. just like this humdrum rainy day.

but that will all change.


it always rains the hardest on the people who deserve the sun...